starting off with the boring update stuff rq

so its been …………. [checks notes] almost 2 months since my last news post, and ever since then I’ve been pretty much radio-silent on here. i didn’t expect my break to last this long, since usually i get a sudden burst of motivation after about a week or two and everything’s fine for another week until the cycle repeats

i think it’s gotten ……… a decent amount better since i first went on break. things definitely aren’t perfect but i’m getting there and i’ve started to create again! a little bit! i’m focusing on creating for myself and my friends first and foremost, since i feel like the pressure of having a followerbase to appeal to was bringing me down

i have no clue when i’ll return but i do want to at some point. i miss the people ive met on here (shoutout to den ur a real one) and getting to go back to posting my art publicly would be nice someday i think

thank you for your patience !!!!!!!!!! I Will Return. Eventually

p.s. i actually went through a username change/rebrand a week or two ago LMFAO my username everywhere is no longer wonkypaws, it’s now “investigation”! newgrounds will be the last place this change goes into effect since you need supporter to change ur user on here afaik. i forgot to change all of the links on my profile until now Lmfao

i was so fucking tired of the name wonkypaws and “investigation” was actually suggested by my best friends . So

ok now here’s the fun art summary stuff

i feel like this one is ……….. pretty sad compared to last year’s art summary

copy-pasting what i wrote in my toyhouse bulletin abt this:

there were so many times this year where i was too tired/sad/sick to draw anything for weeks or over a month at a time and . that hurts me. especially since one of my goals in my art summary bulletin from last year was to finish more things. literally in january of this year i was planning so muhc and then got hit in the fucking face with a traumatic event that i have still not recovered from, and it completely derailed everything. and it all only went downhill after that i think 

and! what do you know! bad mental health affects creativity!

this year was. simultaneously the best & worst of my life. im sure it would’ve been the worst 100% if it wasn’t for my friends (love u guys so much . platonic hugs & kisses). not looking forward to next year and i can’t guarantee i’ll even make much of anything but i’ll try my best and we’ll see what happens

anyway that ramble took a turn out of nowhere . back to talking abt art stuff: there are lots of boxes filled with just sketches/doodles bc there was literally nothing else i drew that month. like rhat was all i could bring myself to draw. been trying to get better abt that but knowing myself i’ll eventually regress and be right back at square one Lmfao 

there’s not muhc else to say. i’ll probably be opening commissions in like, 2026 or so, so i cna work towards moving out. and im not looking forward to that. bc ive done some thinking about where i want to take my art and ive decided turning it into a job would only hurt my relationship with it AND my mental health but i dont seem to have an option. so i’ll probablt be spending 2025 studying and trying to level up my art as much as possible so it can be monetized. i really didnt make much progress in my art this year as you can see above, and i need to fix that asap 

god it just fully hit me that 2025 is next year. we’re almost halfway through the decade. 2020 was almost 5 years ago. fucking hell i hate the passage of time so much

^ since i wrote the above, I’ve been trying to get used to working anyway through The Horrors , and trying to use art as an escape rather than treating it as an extra stressor, and so far it’s been working pretty well

anyway uhhhhhhh not sure how to end this off. here’s a dump of all of my previous art summaries for comparison (or at least, the ones i can find Lmfao im sure theres at least one other one that isnt here)

merry christmas/happy holidays btw !!!!!!!!!!!!! hope u guys have a good one